Life Update

So this was written a while ago, then rewritten, and rewritten again. At this point, I basically have one week left until I graduate. I also realize that it's been a while since I updated my blog. You would think that's because I'm busy, but it's really not. I've definitely been frittering away my time watching movies like Kill Bill, Indiana Jones, and the best movie of all time...Good Will Hunting. Seriously, everyone should watch that movie at least once in their life. And if you think it's about a math genius, then you've missed the point.

I will be graduating from UC Davis in about three weeks with a B.S. in Biotechnology. Hopefully I will be able to go backpacking this summer with one of my fraternity buddies, and visit one of my old friends from camp who is going to be in Seattle for a little while before she goes back to Spain. Then during August, I will be in Kenya, and in September, I should be heading out to Chicago to start working on my Master's degree at Northwestern University (in biotechnology of course). Also, I will be going to Lompoc to visit another one of my friends. Somewhere in there I will need to find a job to occupy my time until I go. I'm thinking that my best bet is the construction job I took last summer. (As of right now, I have no idea how I'm going to make money this summer)

So, like most college seniors, I am riding the roller coaster of the requisite emotions of excitement, fear, reflection, nostalgia, sadness, anticipation, cynicism, hopefulness, and a multitude of additional bittersweet feelings. But at the end of the day, I feel very peaceful. Whether this is from total ignorance of life's hardship, or a true assurance from God, I am grateful for it. If you are interested, I'm pretty sure it's both.

I feel guilty for writing this down, for it seems a bit self-indulgent, but this whole blog is self-indulgent so who cares! Anyways, I want to believe that my life holds promise. I want to believe that my life will not be full of mediocrity. I want to be assured that my weaknesses will not damn me, and my strengths will carry me through. But I seem to have acquired a certain lack of energy, a dearth of drive that causes me to spend time watching internet videos when I should be studying genetics. It is the same thing that causes me to take a nap instead of a run and eat pizza instead of a something healthier. So I suppose the fact that I am human bugs me a bit.

But honestly, I have no idea what the future holds, and my predictions are probably totally wrong. But I am confident that God has given me what I need to fulfill my part in this world, whatever that may be. To find connection to Him and let Him fill me with His love is enough. That is my prayer, at least.